Wednesday, June 2, 2010

A Day Without Vicodin...

is actually quite painful, physically and mentally. I'm not sure which is worse. The physical pain really is pretty much the same only amplified 199.9%. Mentally? Well...knowing it is an addiction, not by choice, makes matters worse. I can't get to the pharmacy fast enough, I have a short fuse, I smoke way too many cigarettes, drink way too much coffee, nervously do way too much around the house...all of which contributes to the amplification of the pain. It is a vicious cycle to be in. It is the only medication that the doctor has prescribed that even comes close to "dulling the pain". I've tried Lyrica, Savella, Wellbutrin and countless others. The only thing I experienced with each one was the side effects..the bad side effects. No thanks. I know that I have been living with this condition for over 12 years but come on, can't they find something that works for people like me? The ones that don't do well on any of the other medications? So for now I take my Vicodin. And at the end of each day I go to bed hurting so much I can't even stand clothes touching my skin.

1 comment:

  1. I totally feel ya'! I've been on Vicodin for more than 18 months straight, with the exception of a relatively pain-free period of two weeks last summer. My last refill ran out last Thursday and my rheumy was out of the office for a week and a half. I'm finally getting the refill today! And I've been packing and doing laundry and packing and cleaning and packing since Friday. Last night I was literally in tears because of my SI joints and hips. I've had virtually no sleep for almost a week. And lack of sleep just makes the RA worse.

    Thankfully, my Fibro has reacted well to Effexor. But that's along with Tramadol and Flexeril. I can't stand taking so many meds. I know my liver hates me! And some days I'll convince myself that I'm doing okay and not take the Vicodin. After a couple of hours I can hardly move. I despise that kind of dependency on ANYTHING!